It’s been a while since we had a heart-to-heart. I know we’ve had many ups and downs over the past 15 years. We started out as buddies in the spring one year and then thank goodness my volleyball coach had enough balls to tell me that I should go out for cross country (since we both know I wasn’t hacking it as a volleyball player).
I fell in love with you logging miles in the summer heat. This love grew and grew and grew during cool fall mornings running across dew covered fields with hundreds of other bony and slightly awkward girls. Pretty soon I figured out I was fast and my love for you earned me medals and recognition. That was fun, wasn’t it?
You even joined me in college for a while and showed me that I could be a varsity collegiate athlete. Who woulda thunk it?! That time was amazing but then out of nowhere I dumped you. I was cruel and you had no idea. And for that I am sorry. I wanted to ‘enjoy’ college and didn’t think you fit in there anymore. Sure, we’d have an occasional date but I thought we were done for good.
After college I’d string you along. We’d have a good few weeks together and then go months without even speaking. I thought about you a lot but was too afraid to call on you again, figuring you’d betray me and make me feel a fool.
I finally called upon you a few years ago and thought we’d work things out for good. But then I got pregnant and lazy and told you to get outta my life for a while. I couldn’t stand the way you made me feel like a total bum.
After that whole having a baby business I wanted to see you again but I wasn’t ready. I knew I had to earn back your trust. I walked… and walked… and walked some more. Oh, the endless walking. I then set up a date with you and felt ashamed of how poorly we meshed. I thought we were doomed. But I didn’t want to give you up. I remembered all the memories, the life lessons you taught me, the troubled times you saw me through. I prayed for you not to give up on me now. I need you.
I bought a bike and had a love affair. I still really like that bike but I knew I just wanted it to give me a leg up to being back with you. It worked.
I logged miles with you on the treadmill. I signed up for below-freezing races. I ran more. I made a whole race schedule for 2011. I embarked on my first real training plan with you in a long time. I gave myself to you again.
You welcomed me, you embraced me and you reward me with endorphins, new memories, respite from my hectic life and show me that I can do anything I want to do.
Well, running… I’m calling on you big time this year. BIG TIME.
Running, I love you. Will you run a marathon with me?
I eagerly await your reply. I understand if you need time to think about it. But either way, I’ll be on that start line on 10/16/2011. I hope you’ll join me.