I blink and I’m nearly 30. (Wednesday)

I blink again and my son is nearly 3. (Friday)

Let me get my cliche on here.

Children will make time go by faster than you knew possible. Sure, there are really long days/nights/weeks/moments that can crawl by. But then sometimes things just get in a groove and you work and weekend and laugh and cry and let the days fly by and suddenly your kid is talking in full sentences and using the toilet and taking Spanish and French lessons at school (um, what?).

As these upcoming birthdays approach I find myself trying to reflect more. When I do find a few moments to do so all I can do is be grateful. I won’t go on to list all my blessings here but dang, I am lucky. I’m not saying my life is shiny and perfect, but it’s the perfect one for me.

OK, mushy post over.

As I feel I say so often lately… life is busy. The days pass by in a blur of work, mom-life, tv on the couch with hubby, cleaning, working more, trying to find a few moments of peace at yoga… repeat, repeat, repeat.

I spent a few days last week in beautiful San Fran with some awesome co-workers and tons of fellow marketing automation nerds. It was more than I could have hoped for…

I spent the weekend trying desperately to recover from a crazy week, long night of red-eye action and a mountain of laundry. Catching up with lots of Miles hugs was in order as well. Annnnd we found time for a little BV Bonfire action and had an awesome night with friends new and old. Thanks Alana & Dean-o!

Besides being absent most of last week I’ve still been hitting the yoga mat as much as possible and a few runs here and there. Now that the temps are staying steady at not freezing I’m craving my running sneakers a little more often than never so that’s a start.

And after today’s horrible tragedy at the Boston Marathon I can’t pull together many words besides that it is an unthinkable tragedy and I am sending so many thoughts to everyone affected. Another reminder to truly take a moment and be thankful for the good things in our lives.

Let’s all try to go out and do something kind for others tomorrow.

So many positive things lately.

A {mostly} happy kiddo. PS – Potty training SUCKS.

A great husband.

A fun job that involves dodge-ball tourneys. Running shoes with tights for the win.

A giant closet purge.

LOTS of yoga. Feeling strong!

Return of Daryl Dixon tonight. Sexy.

Reflecting on all these awesome things makes the yucky things easier to deal with. Mainly a busted dishwasher and furnace… all within 1 week. Blarg!

What’s good for you?

I will NOT feel guilty for giving myself what I want.

I will NOT feel guilty for giving myself what I need.

This is my latest intention. I go to yoga and sweat and stretch and chant it over and over again until my mind is blank. The blankness may only last a few moments at best but those moments are priceless.

Just a month ago I sat here and proclaimed that 2012 would be more running! Look at this big list of races I want to run! Yay running!

And then, I got back in the room. Hey yoga, nice to see you again. I haven’t stopped craving that room since. I have stopped running since though.

Maybe it’s just coincidence, maybe divine intervention… but a beautiful yoga studio just opened a mere 4 minutes from my home. How I didn’t know this was happening is a shock but I found out the day before the first class from Maria on twitter and in that moment I was overjoyed.

Since then I’ve been attending 2-4 classes a week and I couldn’t be both happier and more frustrated. I’m SO happy when I’m in the room. I’m so happy when I leave. I’m so happy when I wake up knowing I have a class later.

I’m frustrated that my desire to run is zero. ZERO.

I have been on the treadmill taking long luxurious walks while watching The Bachelor on my iPad but the thought of cranking the speed past 4 mph is not one in my head.

I was feeling really bad about this. I was feeling guilty. Didn’t I just say I couldn’t wait to run more this year? I’m a fraud!

I was talking to Maria before a great session a few weeks ago about this and she said, “Well maybe this is just what your body needs right now.” You know what, I think she was right. That day during practice my intention was “I will not feel guilty for giving my body and mind what they need.”

Since that day I let go of the guilt and embraced what felt good. Not only for my body but for my mind. I work hard. I parent a 2 year old. I volunteer my time. I try to be on top of things. Why force myself to do something I just don’t want to do right now? Don’t I deserve a few hours a week to do exactly what I want and make myself better because of it? Honestly, I think I do deserve that.

This is by no means me saying I’m not a runner. I love running. I have since I was 12 years old and will continue to for the rest of my life I hope. But who is to say that hanging out the sneakers for a bit (could be a month, could be a year) is wrong? I’m done feeling that it’s wrong.

I will give my myself what I want.

I will give myself what I need.

Namaste.

In similar fashion to 2011 and 2012 I’m setting myself some annual goals. I like the idea of goals rather than resolutions for me personally. I’m pretty jazzed about these as well. Let’s rock 2013!

Continue with 2013’s goal of better skin care. Also add in better hair care. I loved this goal last year and felt I definitely did better than I ever had. I want to keep down that path and continue to improve. I’ve kept the tanning bed urge at bay in 2012 and hope to continue to do so in 2013. Another recent addition to my regime is dry brushing and more regular use of all-over scrubs. I don’t want to limit great skin care only to my face.

Another new addition in 2012 was somewhat more regular manicures which has been good for my cuticles! And I’m newly on the biotin supplement train so I hope it helps bring out the best in my hair and nails!

Keep on sweatin’. Again, somewhat of a repeat of last year! I want to keep up on my gym visits (which have been stellar lately) and keep on runnin’ too. 2012 wasn’t a huge year for running and not that I have any big full mary plans in 2013 I do want to focus a tad more on running compared to 2012. This includes a half mary PR at my spring half. Check back later this week for the 2013 race schedule!

Organize. I have written out 52 notecards containing some sort of cleaning/organizing/purging activity relating to our home, running of our household, finances, etc. I have really felt like the general clutter of life has been closing in lately. Could be all those new Christmas gifts that don’t have homes yet. Each week-ish I’ll pick on out and go for it. Some weeks I might tackle a few, some weeks I might tackle none. Let’s just hope I can tackle them all by the end of 2013!

And here’s the doozy of my goals. The one that might be the hardest for me personally…

Clothing spending freeze until May 1st, 2013. (Not so coincidentally my 30th birthday). I looooooooove clothes, you guys. But honestly I have a closet bursting at the seams and lots of things I don’t even wear. It’s time to get creative, save some cash and start figuring out what clothing I really want/need rather than splurging on all the latest fashions.

Well, here we go! What are your 2013 goals?