As I feel I say so often lately… life is busy. The days pass by in a blur of work, mom-life, tv on the couch with hubby, cleaning, working more, trying to find a few moments of peace at yoga… repeat, repeat, repeat.

I spent a few days last week in beautiful San Fran with some awesome co-workers and tons of fellow marketing automation nerds. It was more than I could have hoped for…

I spent the weekend trying desperately to recover from a crazy week, long night of red-eye action and a mountain of laundry. Catching up with lots of Miles hugs was in order as well. Annnnd we found time for a little BV Bonfire action and had an awesome night with friends new and old. Thanks Alana & Dean-o!

Besides being absent most of last week I’ve still been hitting the yoga mat as much as possible and a few runs here and there. Now that the temps are staying steady at not freezing I’m craving my running sneakers a little more often than never so that’s a start.

And after today’s horrible tragedy at the Boston Marathon I can’t pull together many words besides that it is an unthinkable tragedy and I am sending so many thoughts to everyone affected. Another reminder to truly take a moment and be thankful for the good things in our lives.

Let’s all try to go out and do something kind for others tomorrow.

Well I haven’t really been blogging much over the past week. Truth is, I am avoiding it. I don’t want to put on a sunny disposition in my blog posts when I really am having a tough time. So rather than come here and totally unleash I’ve chosen to just take a hiatus.

I don’t want to go into particulars but the past week has been tough. Yes, things could be worse but I still it’s been tough. I’ve learned again that parenting is the toughest job EVER. Like, EVER.

You know what else I’ve learned? As tough as it is, it is so worth it. I love that little booger more than anything on this earth. I will also do anything I can to look out for his best interests.

Hmmm, what else have you missed out on? Oh yeah… that little Fish Festival 5K from this past weekend!

I only ran once last week but I still headed to my local course to pound out a few miles and see my favorite corntown-gone-cali blogger lady… OUaL. Not only did I get to see her, I also was lucky enough to see her dominate and finish the first female!

I did not run the sub 25 I wanted, but I knew that I wouldn’t. I did still do OK though and ran a 26:40 which is a mere few seconds off my PR from last year and a full minute faster than what I ran at the Fish Festival last year. I’ll take it!

So hopefully I’ll be back on my regular blogging train soon, I hope you have a GREAT week!

Buckle up, my mind is racing and I need to spew some words.

Today was such a weird day. It wasn’t a bad day but I sort of just felt hazy. I mean first of all it was a Monday. On top of that it was Miles’s first day at the daycare at my work. Change is hard. Change can be good, but it’s hard.

I was a bundle of nerves dropping him off. Would he behave? Would he share? Would he nap? Would he eat anything? I won’t bore you with all the answers but overall he had a pretty good day. I was teary when I got to my desk this morning and never really got my bearings all day. I nearly spilled a hot cup of coffee, did spill a cup of kashi at my desk, felt clumsy in general and just anxious all day. It was great to get a few quick updates on Miles throughout the day from his teachers but it was just a long day. Then people were just assholes on my commute home. Hey people, stop being assholes! We would all like to get home alive!

Another topic that has me anxious lately is my bod progress. I blogged a few weeks ago about trying to figure out my diet with my new surroundings and schedule but something must be going wrong because I’m up about 4 lbs. Basically I mostly do good all day and then come home and rage on the pantry. Nothing new, just have to figure it out again.

Running has been lackluster lately too. I can pretty much kiss that sub-25 at the Fish Festival 5K goodbye… which is OK. I definitely haven’t been committed or worked for it so I really don’t deserve it. I did go to a killer spin class at Psycle last Friday and it really reminded me again I love to spin and cycle. I’m contemplating purchasing a pricey (for me) package of classes there.

Despite the prior paragraph I did finally get in a run over 3 miles today. Not by much but it was. It was also the most humid run in a long time. It reminded me of a run last year and I had to dig up the photo just to remind myself how far I’ve come.

Last year…

Today…

Yes, my hair looks good in a rooster hawk, what of it?

Other fun things… I finally got some jeans hemmed and got to wear them today. And some new Sperrys for summmmmah!

Not so fun thing… I shattered my iPhone screen and they want $199 to replace it. Oh hey, that sucks.

What sucks and doesn’t suck about your Monday?

It’s such an odd short period in my life right now. I’m in-between jobs. I have about 10 days off between my last job and my new one and it’s an very out of body experience thus far. Last time I switched jobs I also had a few days off but I was already much more checked out that time knowing I had to find another job if I didn’t want to move to SoCal and I made that move with no hesitation.

I am SO EXCITED for my new job but there was definitely hesitation on making the move. I won’t go into gross detail explaining how it was a hard decision, but just take me for my word that it was.

So now I’m trying to shut my mind off for all the projects I was working on, all the things I was responsible for and the grand plan of things I wanted to do this year. How do you just shut that off? You can’t. Well at least I can’t. But I’m trying. Hence the 10 days off between gigs.

I find it especially hard because I really didn’t get the normal closure when you leave a job because I work remotely. There was no final farewell lunch or happy hour. I didn’t leave my office for the last time. My office is about 6 feet from where I’m sitting now and I’m shipping my work laptop and other things back this week.

It’s just odd. A very odd thing. Not good, not bad… just odd.

On top of all this weird-no-closure emotion we’re earning some major parenting stripes lately.

Miles stopped sleeping well 20 nights ago. We have not had one good night of sleep for 20 nights. We finally decided to try something totally crazy and get rid of his crib and make the move to a regular bed. That in itself is a challenge. So basically we are back to square one with sleep. I had 2 major crying-on-the-bathroom-floor meltdowns yesterday. I was just tired and frustrated and anxious.

I remember how anxious I felt when Miles was a newborn and Mike was about to go back to work leaving me home alone with this new baby and I was running on about 3 hours of sleep total per night. I felt SO ANXIOUS back then. I felt it again yesterday. I just want our nice little life back of when Miles would go down so easy at 8:30 PM and wake around 7:30 AM. We’d get to have our time on the couch with our favorite shows and get good sleep. Now we are back to fighting with Miles for 30-45 min at bed time to lay down and sleep. Then up 3-4 times per night repeating this process. Kids are so hard. SO HARD.

And then don’t even get me started on how hard it is to feel frustrated and then guilty about being frustrated. Seriously, too much emotion and exhaustion for me.

Thank goodness Mike is as cool as a cucumber. While I am about as cool as whatever the hottest thing you can imagine is.

So basically I’m wading through my life right now trying to figure out how to let go of both a job I loved and sleep I loved and how to prepare for a new job and no sleep (again).

This too shall pass.

Well, I survived the week. It’s been a doozy I tell you. Let me get all grown up on you for a minute.

Monday we started off with aforementioned surgery for Miles. Though it was quick and routine it was still my kid having surgery and it wasn’t fun. But well worth it. He already seems much happier and chattier and hopefully this is the first step in no more chronic ear infections and more progress on the talking front. Thanks for all your nice tweets and messages about it as well!

I continued to make Monday the worst day ever by telling my boss I am leaving my job. Basically this is something I never thought I’d do. I love my job, the company, the people and working for my boss. I feel like it’s something I am good at and enjoy. Another opportunity came along and it’s not one I was really searching for but it showed up nonetheless. It became an opportunity I cannot pass up. It’s going to be great both professionally and personally. Not only am I going to be doing a job I can do well and be challenged by but also Miles will make the move to my new employer’s on-site day care which I think is really going to benefit him.

Which brings me to the doozy of all doozies. After sobbing to my boss on Monday about my decision I had to sob to our nanny that come June Miles will attend daycare and we would no longer have her as our in home babysitter. This was the toughest of all. She has become a family member and has been taking care of Miles since he was only 7 weeks old. But being awesome and loving Miles so much she totally understands this decision and knows it will also be great for him.

Seriously, Monday was the worst day ever. I sort of felt like Toby here…

Though I’m still sad and heartbroken about leaving a job I love… I am optimistic about the future. It’s a lot of change in the next few months for myself and my little family but hopefully when I look back in 6, 9 or 12 months I realize it was the right decision.

My new employers seems to have nothing but good things said about it. It also looks like a really fun place to work. I sort of hope it’s like this…

I don’t like to mention my employers name (past, present or future) on my blog but email me if you are dying of curiosity. Or it wouldn’t be that hard to find out if you follow me on twitter.

So the next few weeks I’ll be keeping busy trying to make a smooth transition out from one place, taking a week off, and then into a new one! Be prepared for a few blog posts about OMG I’M SO NERVOUS and OMG I DON’T WANT TO BE THE NEW KID AGAIN.

This weekend should be excellent, my mom is coming to visit and bring me my favorite pizza from home! What’s on your weekend agenda?